Do we start big? Dive right on it? Let’s do it.
What is your purpose? Do you know? Asked another way – what gets you out of bed in the morning (and don’t say coffee or Wordle as the case may be).
Did you think you were clear on your purpose and what made you feel of service and useful, and then 2020, 2021, whatever this year is bringing is happening and you’re not sure anymore? Or perhaps the events and experiences of the last few years made that purpose clearer?
It can be very easy when we become overwhelmed by that which feels out of our control to attempt to go inward, to think about the self. Purpose? Who cares! This is survival, right?
How do I protect myself and my family?
How do we keep safe?
Concerning ourselves primarily with the self is our lowest intuitive order.
It is about our instinct of survival.
When we are in this state it is impossible to see the big picture, let alone shine a light on the parts we can’t yet see or that haven’t made themselves known, let alone be in a creative state. This is where our blind spots are biggest, and our dissonance most dangerous.
Creativity is shut off. Creativity, however, is where the healing happens and this is often when we need it most.
find your purpose amidst the unknown
The last time I felt this way was when I was diagnosed with an auto-immune disease in 2006. My priority, my only care, was about my own health– essentially, my survival.
That unexpected diagnosis turned my entire vision of my future upside down. At 26, I realized all that I had been working towards, that I had been wanting and envisioning for my life, no longer made sense. It was the first time in my adult life that I had no choice but to walk into The Unknown.
I am right back in that state, today. I’ve likely been simmering here for the last 24 months.
Once again, the events of life are asking me to leap into The Unknown. I have a feeling that you’re reading this because, like it or not, you’re in it with me. Despite some semblance of ‘normalcy’ returning, none of us are coming through this unchanged.
As uncomfortable as it is, I am trusting the process. I’ve been here before. You probably have been, too.
It was from my healing experience in 2006 that I found my way to the highest intuitive order – that of being of service to others. I did it through health education and cooking. This was my way in. I have no idea where or how the idea came to me to start teaching cooking classes. I didn’t even really know how to cook. But I trusted that inner voice and went for it.
Our highest intuitive order is about supporting other people’s survival – the survival and thriving of the whole.
be part of the light
We are seeing this play out all around us right now, the low and high actions, as the service and healing of the whole is what is needed desperately for humanity.
There are those that have made themselves known to only be about their own safety, survival, and personal power and those that are taking the path of serving the whole, the greater greatness in the spirit of love, unity, connection, and community.
Remember, the darkness enables us to see where the light shines, and also where the light is needed most.
In case you didn’t know it yet, you are part of that light. You are here for it, like it or not.
You can, of course, resist it – plug your ears and sing a song so you can’t hear that inner voice of your own. Or you can think it’s me or someone else and can unfollow, unsubscribe, even throw a nasty message on your way out, but none of those reactions have anything to do with anyone other than you. That’s just resistance or fear. Likely both.
Little questions can quickly become big ones. We’re not always ready for the answers.
Some are referring to what’s happening right now in our world as a mass awakening. I am well aware of how terms like “awakening” can now be triggering or inspire others to shut down and back away. Stay with me. Words have been turned into weapons– let that go.
Whatever you want to call it, it is happening.
Over the last several years there has been a shift towards mass connection, and in recent months there has been a collective desire to grow stronger as a community – to be more loving, accepting, and kind. We missed each other.
Of course, not everyone is up for the adventure or is going to be a part of it. We have to accept that.
Opening our eyes, looking around, questioning things, seeking a higher purpose, and tuning into our intuition on all levels has nothing to do with anyone else. That is all you.
Resisting it will create suffering. Don’t believe me? Try and find out. There are a lot of us in this camp right now.
I am struggling in resistance mode. I’ve watched spiritually-inspired videos saying that we all asked to be here for this. I’ve heard us be called the “bridge generation”, and that we are raising little warriors. And I’m thinking– No. Both me and my soul want to be at the beach maxing and relaxing. Literally and metaphorically, I’d really, really like to get to a beach.
But here I am. Here you are.
surrender to your higher purpose
I thought that asking that first big question waaaaay back in 2006 “Can I heal this?” was just going to lead me to some green juice and yoga classes.
When I started my business in 2008, I wanted to show up, make some smoothies for you, get you to eat your greens, drink more water, get better sleep, and enjoy nature with a smile on your face- and then I was going to retire early.
Cute, right? Maybe that was preparing all of us for this.
Over the holiday period this year I was hosting these free and open sessions called Wake-Up Wednesdays. They started small and then I had more than 200 beautiful humans joining me to meditate mid-day, mid-week.
I facilitated conversations I didn’t feel remotely equipped to facilitate and yet, people kept coming and then flooding my inbox with love and kindness. And I recognized my resistance as my own fear.
I often share this quote with my students from author and doctor Rachel Ramen: “Fear is the friction of all transition”.
Dear friends, I feel it right now. I feel this friction deeply. I feel the transition. Do you?
I am diving into a new calling, serving in a new way. I am not questioning my purpose so much as asking what is needed of me.
The answer always comes back crystal clear: surrender. This isn’t surrender from a “giving up” perspective. In fact, it’s quite the opposite. It’s bowing to the truth of what is needed of me at this moment.
trust in the unknown
As such, I’m working on resting my nervous system while tuning in to what’s real and what matters in greater ways. It includes the following goals:
Rise above the chaos, go with the flow, tune into the heart, seek out the light and the light seekers, let go of that which no longer serves (and that includes relationships), and see where The Unknown leads.
Remember – there are plans unfolding. Big ones. Bigger than us all and bigger than we can ever know or figure out. Spending time down in the weeds of it all, only diverts us from the important urgent work that requires our energy, focus, and attention.
We can look at plans and events unfolding and throw labels on them, and allow fear to penetrate our being, but ultimately our lesson here is to keep rising. To trust in The Unknown for it is in The Unknown that absolutely any and every outcome is possible.
What if it all turns out dramatically more incredible than we ever could have imagined? That’s also possible.
At least from my experience, trusting the process continues to prove this. It doesn’t however, get easier. That, of course, is where we just have to close our eyes, get quiet, and leap.
Trust that higher intuition
How can you serve the whole of humanity? The planet? You can’t — at least not if that’s your goal. You’ll quickly become overwhelmed and stop.
It starts with you, your energy, where you put your time, how you engage and communicate with others, and most of all, by speaking, doing, and being in alignment with your heart. Not forever, just right now. And again in the next moment when you remember. And the next.
Doing the work becomes the easy part when you’re focused on operating from that higher place.
How do you get there? Start with a few deep breaths.
Get quiet and choose love.
We have to get quiet if we want to hear anything at all and it is the power of love that changes the world.
Just as words can be weapons, words can also be our medicine. This is my offering for your peace and wellbeing.
On My Mind Episode 27: In Pursuit of Purpose and Rising Together
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